I'm 27....

So what does this mean?
I'm 27. I'm sitting here and it's 12:20am and I'm trolling through the internet... going to forums and searching ebay. I'm often finding it hard to sleep... just the early parts of sleep, the part where you are lying there. I get to the part before I fall asleep and sometimes I get scared.... like real scared!

- What if I don't wake up...
- What will happen?
- Will I know what is happening?
- Will I be missed?

I know I'll miss being alive... all the things I love to do... Will Diana know that I love her? Will my family know I love them? What about my friends?! All these questions....

All this has come crashing down on my in the last couple of months.... and tonight. I find it on my mind. I guess writing this down has allowed me to sum up what is on my mind....

We'll see what happens in the next 20-30mins. Will I sleep? I better, I've got work in another 8 hours.....