Where's that damn promotion!

So you search for yourself and then remembered that you had a blog... interesting.

You look back at your posts and then realise that you've aged. Better yet, gracefully.

Learning that you still don't know all that there is to know but at least you are happy with yourself.

Important learning and something that you often tell others - Moisturize, cause your skin is very important.

Good bye for another 5 years Mr Blog - face is like this because i'm tired.

Black, it's the new black

Like the sands of time through an hourglass, these are the days of our lives.

List 3 achievements, in no particular order.

1. I'm a father.
2. I've got a job
3. Great friends and family.

I often hear myself having an internal conversation much like Rob Gordon. It does send me back 10+ years. Imagine that.

List 3 things that mattered 10+ years ago, in no particular order.

1. Bike
2. My legs
3. Whatever man, uni sucks!

And you know what? It's all about the sand.

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So, I passed the exam! YAY!
Officially VCP410. I've put so much of my mind into this thing but I feel so 'normal' just a day after finishing it.

I think studying should be done for only a couple of reasons. Investing in oneself which brings value, which builds confidence and then new job! BAM! I think a missed a few steps there but you get the point.

Funny that, I didn't tell anyone that I was doing the exam but I suggestions were put forward for a change in role (aka. promo). I must be highly valuable... +1 to investing on myself.

Yet. I still feel like this though....

Time on Earth (so far): 28 years and 11 months

Twas the morning before my exam and not a soul was stirring. I nervously shift my weight, side to side to calm the waves. Did I do enough, have I prepared all I could? Definitely not, I guess it's natural, or at least in my opinion - to do all I can, in the time that we've been given. I guess I'll see, in 3 hours time. Whether they be tears of joy, or heartache. Oh hark!

and this is how I feel right now...

I'm 27....

So what does this mean?
I'm 27. I'm sitting here and it's 12:20am and I'm trolling through the internet... going to forums and searching ebay. I'm often finding it hard to sleep... just the early parts of sleep, the part where you are lying there. I get to the part before I fall asleep and sometimes I get scared.... like real scared!

- What if I don't wake up...
- What will happen?
- Will I know what is happening?
- Will I be missed?

I know I'll miss being alive... all the things I love to do... Will Diana know that I love her? Will my family know I love them? What about my friends?! All these questions....

All this has come crashing down on my in the last couple of months.... and tonight. I find it on my mind. I guess writing this down has allowed me to sum up what is on my mind....

We'll see what happens in the next 20-30mins. Will I sleep? I better, I've got work in another 8 hours.....

Bikessss

I'm sitting around and it's 7:43pm. Everything pretty much finished up quickly tonight. Didn't really have to do much else from the looks of it. Luckily I did get around to most things before 8pm (for a change!). And I'm staring at the one thing that is making me happy.... (well, not really the one thing but it's the only thing at my work..) Not the best picture I must say, just a nice lean but the posture and the bike needs to be a bit more aggressive.
My more recent works are nicer... ehaheeh.... But too bad i didn't get them. I am thinking about getting more pictures but i really don't think it's worth the cash. Maybe just stick with what I have and save money.

Guitar.... I need more practice. More MORE MORE!! Comon man! You need to get the picking right....
Well, no use complaining about being shit... time to do something about it!

I'm back on the rag and ovulating.....

So i'm back at work after almost a week off (4 days exactly)... and the first thing i wanna do is bludge. haha....
It hasn't been a flat out day as yet, oracle is down.... but it isn't affecting a lot of people (just one, but a big one so we better get our act together)...

Ahhhh... well, about my life, what about it ay? The most interesting of all right now is the bad itch that is going through my leg.... friggen hell these bandages are getting manky! I wonder if i should just take them off because i don't think i am bleeding anymore and it looks all good and well.

And my music... well, i am trying to get inspiration and trying to basically get back into it. I don't think i can. I don't know what i should be looking into and i basically feel like i don't know what i personally like. I don't know, maybe its just me getting back to work and feeling crap.

Right now... heres my image for the day/week/month... Till my next post...